Jessie J talks about her miscarriage
Pop singer Jessie J is reflecting on the pregnancy loss she suffered in late 2021 while reaching out to fans for support.
Jessie J is reflecting on her emotional pain after experiencing a miscarriage last year.
In an Aug. 19 Instagram post, the British pop star recalled how at age 16, she wrote a list of things she wanted by the time she was 30. “1st thing on the list was to be a Mum,” she wrote. “Now I’m nearly 35 and some days the grief of losing a baby and it not being easy to have one, and wanting my life in that way to look completely different to what it looks like right now just overwhelms me.”
She went on, “I know it’s healthy and normal to have days of full despair and to honor all feelings, good and bad, that arise. The unpleasant happens infrequently, and certainly, I could go through this time right now in solitude, as I usually do, but today I am here. Because I know thousands of people all over the world share my sentiments. Maybe you’ll read this and feel my love for you. I’m hoping you can. Connecting is essential. I’m hugging everyone.”
Many social media users, including Ariana Grande, liked Jessie’s post, which also received hundreds of supportive comments from fans. “Thank you Jessie for this post,” one of them wrote. “I needed someone to say those words so much. Love you.”
Last November, Jessie shared the news that she had gotten pregnant and had suffered a miscarriage. In a deeply personal Instagram post, she said that a day earlier, she went in for an ultrasound and was told there was no longer a fetal heartbeat.
Hours after sharing her news, Jessie performed an acoustic show in Los Angeles, where she also opened up about her pregnancy loss. “I decided to have a baby by myself,” she told the audience, tearfully, “and then by a miracle, it worked for a little while. And yesterday, yeah, yesterday was f–king s–t.”
Jessie also discussed her ordeal on the Diary of a CEO podcast in May. “I awoke one morning thinking, ‘Oh, I don’t feel right.’ I was still sick to my stomach. I instantly knew something wasn’t right.”
She went on, “I went to the doctor, and there was that horrible quiet when you first had a scan, and they didn’t say anything. ‘Just tell me the truth,’ I said. ‘What exactly is going on?’ ‘Your baby’s heartbeat is quite low, and there’s this like, ring,’ she continued. ‘What does that mean?’ I wondered. ‘It often signifies that the kid will have some sort of handicap or deformity,’ she added.”
Jessie said she was offered a blood test but opted to drive to another doctor’s office for a second opinion. While getting another ultrasound there, a few hours later, she was told there was no longer a fetal heartbeat.
The singer also discussed her decision to conduct her concert following her bereavement. “The hardest part for me was not being on the show,” she explained. “The show was actually kind of a crazy, hazy dream, and I was just incredibly thankful that I wasn’t alone and that so many people I care about showed up and came to the show.”
“I drove in the car after the show, by myself, and I came home and I opened my front door and I closed the door, and I fell to my knees,” Jessie added. The toughest part of the whole experience was understanding that, aside from my work, being a mother and having a child had been the most rewarding part of my life.
The 34-year-old expressed gratitude that “It’s honestly brought me to some of the happiest moments that I’ve felt because…opened it’s the way for me to love myself deeper,” she adds. I’m still absorbing everything, and I have times of deep loss and anguish, but I also have moments of excitement knowing that I won’t be able to do it alone.”